Category: poetry

Moving On

We had planned to visit Italy together

But plans often go awry

We didn’t plan for cancer to take you

Gone at such a young age

All of our dreams crashed into nothing

I made it to Italy

Thought I could escape

Your memory

But the future we never shared

Haunts me here too

I rented a quaint place

A shop below

Where I sell our things

Above it a small apartment

Where I imagine you might fly in on wings

One bicycle rests outside

Remember we had planned

To cycle the cobbled streets

But now there’s only one cycle not two

And oh how I miss you

E.A. Fussell

02.09.2020

Enjoyment

This morning

As I picked up

One of my favorite things

A latte made with heavy cream

The barista asked me

“What’s on your agenda today?”

“Not-a-lot”, I replied

“And Sunday is my favorite day

To do not-a-lot”

E.A.Fussell

02.09.2020

Is it really necessary

Lately

Numerous people

Have felt compelled

To tell me to “ Breathe”

Which is a way of saying

“Slow down” or “calm down”

“it’ll all be okay”

In my construction life

I am not a calm person

Wide open is my speed

I don’t know how to slow down

And just breathe

Who has time for

Deep intakes of air anyway

All I need

Are short gasps of pure oxygen

Just enough to get me thru

To the next task at hand

Perhaps occasionally exhaled

In colorful expletives

I will retire one day

That’s when I will slow down

That’s when I will breathe

Until then

I choose to run wide open

Trying to curtail my exhales

From turning into F-bombs

While knowing that each day

I maxed out my energy

With the effort I gave

E.A. Fussell

01.30.2020

Storm’s Brewing

Be still” is one of the most difficult directions to follow, especially when we face a storm.

Sometimes the storm isn’t even for us but we feel compelled to help and suddenly find ourselves in the middle of it. Helping isn’t always the best thing.

If you know someone who continually needs help to get through a storm, maybe that’s because you continue to help them and they never go thru the storm alone with God.

We have a tendency to insert ourselves in God’s place thinking we are helping when we are actually prolonging or negating the lesson or the change the storm was intended for.

Even in our own storms it’s easier to rush for a solution instead of being still and listening for confirmation from the Word of which direction we should take.

When we try too hard or move too fast for a resolution we again insert ourselves into God’s place and may take the wrong path.

Storms are a part of life. Some are ours some are for others. They can be personal, professional, or spiritual in nature. Try to remember that not every storm is meant for you to ride through.

Be still, wait on the Lord, He will be true to His Word and direct you, if you wait on Him.

E.A. Fussell

1.17.2020

Stop being abused

Unconditional love

Does not mean

Unconditional acceptance

Of bad behavior

We can love someone and

Forgive them

But that does not mean

We have to spend time with them

And subject ourselves

To continued abuse

Abuse comes in many forms

Physical

Mental

Financial

Spiritual

What are you accepting

Under the guise of

Unconditional love

Stop, I did

E.A.Fussell

1.16.2020