Etc…

I am equal to you
You are equal to her
She is equal to him
He is equal to me
Etcetera for infinity

Mix it up anyway you like
I’m not special or separate
You’re not special or separate
We are equal

E.A. Fussell
5.19.2023

No longer the puppeteer


Six decades of life

You pulled my strings

Made me dance 

To all the tunes you sing

Pride

Guilt

Fear

Vanity

Greed

Pleasure

Judgement

You wove those strings 

Through my mind

Exploiting every weakness 

You could find 

Caused me to waste 

A lot of love 

And so much time

I can’t turn back the clock

Undo the damage done

I don’t know how much 

Time is left

But at the end 

You will not have won

It took a lifetime

For me to find 

The scissors to cut

These strings that bind

I’ve figured it out

I’m sharpening the blade 

It’s time to set right

This mess you’ve made

With each string that’s cut

More Light shines through 

Pushing back the darkness

Your lies can no longer  

Hide the Truth

As time brings in another year

I remember who I am

And why I’m here

You’re a part of me

I cannot completely 

Release you

But I can surely 

Release me

You will always be there

Whispering in my ear

Trying to get my attention 

No longer the puppeteer 

You’re only one aspect 

Of my multi faceted self

As the strings are cut

I do not fall

Light gets brighter

I rise higher 

Thru it all 

Standing up

By letting go

I will diligently hold

The scissors ready

To cut new strings 

You try to sew

Reminding myself

You’re not as important 

As you would have me think 

You are no longer 

In control

You’re just 

My old 

Ego

E.A. Fussell

05.18.2023

What we focus on we see

“If you give no power to the fog to obscure the light, it has none.”

My thoughts from this morning’s meditation: We have the ability to see clearly through the thickest fog. Power is ours to give. Our power goes to what we focus on. Focus on fog and it gets the power. Focus on seeing through the fog and then light gets the power. Forgiveness is a power filled tool for changing our focus back to love.

E.A. Fussell

05.15.2023

I surrender

The ego fights to dominate our thoughts because it understands if we are willing to let go of self-doubt, then we are willing to let go of ego which is the one feeding our self-doubt.

The world feeds our ego and then ego teaches us that surrendering is a weakness. When in fact surrendering can be one of the strongest things we do. Surrendering to self-love limits the ego and allows our perspective on life to change.

Humans don’t particularly like change, we like familiarity. Change is uncomfortable. There is comfort in familiarity, even when it’s painful. That is one of the reasons we stay in toxic relationships, unhealthy diets, or other situations that aren’t ideal.

Change, and the uncomfortable feeling it brings, is what we signed up for when we accepted the Universe’s offer presented in the form of this course hosted by Val & Adam. Each day we do our homework we are affirming our willingness to change.

This willingness scares our ego so it will create stumbling blocks of resistance. This morning my ego argued with me over the simple act of getting on my knees as an act of surrender while reading the passage. I ignored Gertrude and got on my knees anyway.

I am willing to do the work required to change. I am willing to let go of my self-doubt. I surrender to self-love.

E.A. Fussell

05.05.2023

I am responsible for what I see

I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the good I would achieve. And, everything that happens to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.

That’s hard for the ego to digest. Our ego works hard to keep us stuck in self-attack and doesn’t want to accept that we created the scenario we are complaining about. The energy we used to create a negative situation can be used to create a positive situation, if we shift from the vibration of fear to the vibration of love. But its our choice. We can choose to lash out or let go.

When we lash out against a partner, or someone we feel has unjustly accused us, it may seem like we are defending ourselves, protecting. But anger is a form of self-attack. That’s why we feel so bad after verbally railing against another soul.

We’ve all experienced this at some point in our evolution. We’re going off on someone, giving them a piece of our mind, it felt good to release on them, we felt justified. Then later, we felt terrible, maybe even had physical symptoms. Because we gave them something more valuable than a piece of our mind, we sacrificed for them the PEACE of our mind.

The ego thinks it’s helping but it’s need to compare itself to others, justify it’s actions, reinforce it’s illusion that we are better than (or less than) others is emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically harming to our being.

The miracle is that we have a choice. We can choose what we experience. We can change what we experience. We are responsible for what we see.

E.A. Fussell

05.04.2023

Self reflection

Self-reflection can be daunting. Looking at ourselves, really looking, with eyes that see clearly. We realize that often what we see in ourselves, and others, is distorted by fear. Miracles happen when we learn to look through eyes of love. 💗

E.A. Fussell

05.03.2023

Two Baristas

A real-life example of how our energy impacts others before we even speak, especially if we have had a previous interaction with them.

Two Barista’s Two Energetic Experiences:

In each experience I spoke my regular order into the large electronic device covered with enticing photos of sweet treats subliminally encouraging me to indulge in more than just a coffee and proceeded to the checkout window.

Experience #1 Monday Morning:

As I rounded the corner of the building, I noticed which barista was at the window and immediately felt a surge of positive energy. This soul is always exuding love, joy and hope. They are one of those individuals who makes you instantly feel better just by seeing them at a distance.

Experience #2 Thursday Morning:

As I rounded the corner of the building, I noticed which barista was at the window and immediately used my friend Adam’s phrase, “Armadillo! Armadillo!” to protect my energy field from the negativity that exudes from this person. The first word’s out of her mouth, spoken with a suspicious tone and head cocked to one side, “You’re awful cheerful this morning.” I continued to smile as she reminded me with a hint of dread, “But, the day is still early.” and she continued to go into detail about the bad life she was having. I continued to smile, drowning out her words as I thougt to myself, “Yes, it is still early, and I can’t wait to see what miracle it holds for me. Lord, please help this woman have a shift in perception and be able to see that life can be enjoyable.”

Our energy truly does introduce us before we even speak. May we not get caught up in other people’s negativity and may we be that soul that another soul leaps for joy to see. 😊💕

E.A. Fussell

05.11.2023

Fiery field

Photo 5/9/23 Lago Vista, Texas; inspired this poem

May my spirit be

Set a flame with a fire

No manmade thing

Can quench

May I understand

You clothe fields with

Wildflowers

Here today, gone tomorrow

Indicating how much more

You will take care of me

Your love for me

Exceeds all that I can see

Surpasses all that I can Comprehend

I am grateful

For this moment

E.A. Fussell

O5.09.2023

Luke 3:16

Matthew 6:30

Surrender to self-love

“I am willing to let go of my self-doubt. I surrender to self-love.”

The ego fights to dominate our thoughts because it understands if we are willing to let go of self-doubt, then we are willing to let go of ego which is the one feeding our self-doubt.

The world feeds our ego and then ego teaches us that surrendering is a weakness. When in fact surrendering can be one of the strongest things we do. Surrendering to self-love limits the ego and allows our perspective on life to change.

Humans don’t particularly like change, we like familiarity. Change is uncomfortable. There is comfort in familiarity, even when it’s painful. That is one of the reasons we stay in toxic relationships, unhealthy diets, or other situations that aren’t ideal.

Change, and the uncomfortable feeling it brings, is what we must experience to release self-doubt and embrace self-live. Each day we work on loving ourselves we affirm our willingness to change.

This willingness scares our ego so it will create stumbling blocks of resistance. This morning my ego argued with me over the simple act of getting on my knees as an act of surrender. I ignored Gertrude (my ego) and got on my knees anyway.

I am willing to do the work required to change. I am willing to let go of my self-doubt. I surrender to self-love.

E.A. Fussell

05.05.2023

I am responsible for what I see

I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience and I decide upon the good I would achieve. And, everything that happens to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked.

That’s hard for the ego to digest. Our ego works hard to keep us stuck in self-attack and doesn’t want to accept that we created the scenario we are complaining about. The energy we used to create a negative situation can be used to create a positive situation, if we shift from the vibration of fear to the vibration of love. But its our choice. We can choose to lash out or let go.

When we lash out against a partner, or someone we feel has unjustly accused us, it may seem like we are defending ourselves, protecting. But anger is a form of self-attack. That’s why we feel so bad after verbally railing against another soul.

We’ve all experienced this at some point in our evolution. We’re going off on someone, giving them a piece of our mind, it felt good to release on them, we felt justified. Then later, we felt terrible, maybe even had physical symptoms. Because we gave them something more valuable than a piece of our mind, we sacrificed for them the PEACE of our mind.

The ego thinks it’s helping but it’s need to compare itself to others, justify it’s actions, reinforce it’s illusion that we are better than (or less than) others is emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically harming to our being.

The miracle is that we have a choice. We can choose what we experience. We can change what we experience. We are responsible for what we see.

E.A. Fussell

05.04.2023