“No snowflake in an avalanche ever feels responsible” or is it
“Every snowflake in an avalanche feels responsible”
One of the random thoughts that tossed itself into my mind this morning. Of course, I could have tossed it right back out. But I entertained myself by playing with it for a few minutes.
E.A. Fussel
06.16.2021
For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
Ecclesiastes 1:18
Ignorance is bliss
Or so they say
I wish some days
My mind wasn’t curious
And could be satisfied
To just sit still
Not feel compelled
To walk toward the light
Not search for wisdom
Nor seek to ponder
The purpose of life
Especially when
Complex darkness rushes in
Convincing me
There is no purpose in this life
Worth engaging in
E.A. Fussell
O6.14.2021
Impatience
Can make us take
A step that is too big
Causing disappointment
Which can immobilize us
And take away our reach
In trying to stretch ourselves
We injure ourselves unknowingly
Defeating our own purpose
Having a targeted destination
Keeps us looking forward
But often the sideline view
Is worth pausing for
Allowing us to enjoy the journey
And still reach our destination
It’s okay to have a big goal
It’s okay to rethink
How we reach it
E.A. Fussell
06.02.2021
Death & Freedom
Seem to go hand-in-hand
Death leads to freedom
Regardless of whether it is
A noble soldier on the battlefield
Seeking freedom for their country
Or a patient on the battlefield of disease
Seeking freedom from pain and suffering
Or a drug addict on the battlefield of life
Seeking freedom from their tortured mind
Death leads to freedom in all cases
Then grief engulfs families for decades
The price of freedom is very high
For families of soldiers as well as
For anyone who has lost someone
Who didn’t survive
Their search for freedom
E.A. Fussell
05.31.2021
Bravery
Can
Make
Us
Look
Ignorant
To
Those
Unwilling
To
Take
A
Stand
Ignorance
Can
Make
Us
Look
Brave
To
Those
Unaware
Of
Our
Circumstances
Compromise
Can
Allow
Predator
And
Prey
To sun
On
The
Same
Log
In
The
Middle
Of
The
Day
Without
Letting
Bravery
Or
Ignorance
Get
In
The
Way
E.A. Fussell
05.30.2021
Fragments
Experiences
Thoughts
Feelings
Words
Given away
Collected
In different sized pieces
Wondrous
Glorious
Terrifying
How much there is
To take
How much we have
To give
A never ending supply
Fragmented pieces
For as long as
We live
E.A.Fussell
w10.11.2017
r05.17.2021
Freedom
Newley found in her
Purposelessness
No goal no rush
Disentangled
From striving for more
Unconcerned
About popular opinion
Fearless
In the face of aging
Iconic
In her way of thinking
E.A. Fussell
05.16.2021
May we find peace
Somewhere In the pieces
When we must come undone
Losing our ability
To hold ourselves together
In the face of life’s tragedies
May we fall apart beautifully
Knowing that eventually
We will pull ourselves back together
Forever changed
With some cracks remaining
But back together all the same
May the cracks in our soul
Created by the lost pieces of ourselves
Shine brightly as beacons
To other suffering beings
Letting them know they are not alone
And that they will survive the pain
E.A. Fussell
05.09.2021
Note to self:
Today’s thoughts
Become today’s choices
Which become
Tomorrow’s reality
What reality do you desire
Be mindful of your choices today
Or you might find
That your old thought pattern
Has tripped you up
And landed you on your keister
E.A. Fussell
05.08.2021
Son
Since your death
I’ve been renovating
Wrecking myself
Crashing down heart walls
Stumbling through the rubble
Of a life wasted
Pulling invisible cables
Trying to hoist myself up
Out of the depths of despair
Depression can’t have me
I’m elevating
Adding multiple floor levels
Insulating and protecting myself
Layering bricks of numbness
Upward out of the mire
Of should have
Could have
What if
If only
Tears flow
Like a fountain
Forming a mote of memories
Surrounding me
On all sides
My thoughts are the bridge
Separating the fragile glass castle
Of my heart
From the dark mired forrest of grief
Threatening to overtake my mind
E.A.Fussell
05.08.2021
