This fountain is in the town square of Paris, Texas. I did a little dance around it today and well, let me tell you about it in this poem:

Paris, Texas
Ain’t no Paris, France
But I traveled through it
Earlier today
And can now say
In Paris
I have danced
Under a blue sky
In the middle of the day
The autumn leaves
Whispering in the wind
Watching me play
Around a 1927 fountain
To one of my favorite
Country tunes
That expresses one of my truths
I’ve still got a
Lot of leavin’ left to do

E.A. Fussell
10.16.2020

To see your future

Look at the choices

You are making right now

Choices made years ago

Yesterday

Or five minutes ago

Created the present you

Pay attention to

The present

It is the cause of your future

As much as it is

A result of your past

E.A. Fussell

10.15.2020

I’m just a

Nobody

Who is tired of being

Somebody

That’s always doing

Something

For the world to see

I’m just a

Nobody

With a goal of doing

Nothing

Knowing that will be

Something

Truly amazing to see

E.A. Fussell

10.15.2020

Sleeping

Isn’t always restful

Even if it’s comfortable

Hanging onto things

We can’t change

Refusing to accept them

As they are

Unable to let them go

Wrestling with the anxiety

They bring

Tossing and turning

Acid burning in the stomach

Trying to make it through the night

Not knowing what to do

Having nowhere to go

Holding onto familiar misery

Like an old worn security blanket

Sleep coming in brief interludes

When the mind stops

Processing it’s circles of thought

Exhausted and needing a break

Wrapped in the comfort

Of this old familiar cycle of agony

Drifting off to sleep

Only to awake

Within the hour or so

And start the churning again

Wondering if it will ever end

Knowing that only when

A new choice is made

In the waking hours

Will restful sleep

Be ours

E.A. Fussell

10.13.2020

Hold me tightly

Like you don’t want to let go

Hold me tightly

Like you know me intimately

Hold me tightly

Remember how love used to be

Before

Decades of misunderstandings

Created miles

Of invisible distance

Between us

Causing multi-faceted

Separateness

In the middle of our union

Hold me tightly

Squeeze the resentment away

Help me get back to that place

Where you were the only thing

I could see

And you were madly in love with me

E.A. Fussell

10.12.2020

When despair awakens me

In the middle of the night

And I feel my heart clenching shut

As I fear for my child’s life

Will he overcome addiction

Or will addiction kill him

I remind myself this emotion of fear

Is coming from a thought

Thoughts create our reality

So

I change my thought

And see my son

As a recovered healthy man

Surrounded by a good life

Laughter, children, a loving wife

A house, land, all he had planned

Then I close my eyes

Drift back into sleep

With an open heart

No more anxiety

E.A. Fussell

10.11.2020

The world will always tell you

Who it thinks you are

You can get caught up

In the script

That it

Establishes for you

Giving away the peace

That rests within

Or

You can give yourself

Permission

To create without inhibition

Whatever you choose

What life do you want

If it’s the one you have that’s great

If it’s not then change it

It’s okay to be unapologetically you

E.A. Fussell

10.10.2020

Fear is a waste of attention

But there are those

Who are caught in it’s grip

If you can’t help yourself

If fear entices you

If you find you’re mind

Must entertain worry

Then fear this:

One year from this moment

Being in the exact same place

Of inner awareness you are in right now

If I were inclined to fear

That would terrify me

E.A. Fussell

10.08.2020

Part of her mystery

Is that she is not traditional

She is not predictable

She is ever changing

There is no way for you to know her

Just when you think

You’ve got her figured out

That you’ve found her breaking point

You will find her standing strong

In the middle of the storm

Watching it rage around her

Quiet and at peace

Unruffled by the winds of change

Solid in knowing

Her awareness

Is a powerful presence

Don’t let it worry you

No one can catch this shooting star

Embodied in human form

Accept her mystery

Embrace her unpredictability

Bask in the freedom she offers

It’s your choice

Stay

Or

Go your own way

E.A. Fussell

10.08.2020

Circles of me

Boomerang out

Eventually returning

What vibration am I sending

What atmosphere am I changing

What impact am I having

This can be determined

Easily

By what is returning

All I have to remember is

To change my environment

Just change my vibration

Such a simple

Uncomplicated process

Difficult in it’s execution

E.A. Fussell

10.08.2020