You are
At this very moment
Right smack-dab
In the middle
Of your own
Field of diamonds
Acres and acres of diamonds
Others may be able to see
Your diamonds
But you are the only one
Who can mine them
The only thing stopping you
Is you
E.A. Fussell
05.30.2023
In the living of life we will each face a variety of experiences. Some good, some bad, some happy, some sad. The rocks strewn along our path can be deceiving. At first glance they may look like obstacles. When we pause for a moment and look closer we may see that they are actually there to elevate us; if we step up on the rock we can see farther. Or maybe they offer a solid surface as a good place to rest for a moment before continuing on our journey.
Yes, there will be times rocks are just obstacles. But when we learn to pause on our path, take in the full scope of the scenery surrounding us, look at things differently than our immediate reaction, we may find a blessing in disguise.
E.A. Fussell
05.29.2023
(People have to go through trials and tribulations to get where they at. Do your thing – continue to rock it – because obviously, God wants you here. Kendrick Lamar)
Loving someone who doesn’t love you back is like hugging a cactus. The tighter you hold on, the more it’s going to hurt.
Let go, heal, wait for someone who loves you. They will show up when you least expect it. When you hug them there will be no pain, they will feel like home.
E.A. Fussell
05.28.2023
I am equal to you
You are equal to her
She is equal to him
He is equal to me
Etcetera for infinity
Mix it up anyway you like
I’m not special or separate
You’re not special or separate
We are equal
E.A. Fussell
5.19.2023
Six decades of life
You pulled my strings
Made me dance
To all the tunes you sing
Pride
Guilt
Fear
Vanity
Greed
Pleasure
Judgement
You wove those strings
Through my mind
Exploiting every weakness
You could find
Caused me to waste
A lot of love
And so much time
I can’t turn back the clock
Undo the damage done
I don’t know how much
Time is left
But at the end
You will not have won
It took a lifetime
For me to find
The scissors to cut
These strings that bind
I’ve figured it out
I’m sharpening the blade
It’s time to set right
This mess you’ve made
With each string that’s cut
More Light shines through
Pushing back the darkness
Your lies can no longer
Hide the Truth
As time brings in another year
I remember who I am
And why I’m here
You’re a part of me
I cannot completely
Release you
But I can surely
Release me
You will always be there
Whispering in my ear
Trying to get my attention
No longer the puppeteer
You’re only one aspect
Of my multi faceted self
As the strings are cut
I do not fall
Light gets brighter
I rise higher
Thru it all
Standing up
By letting go
I will diligently hold
The scissors ready
To cut new strings
You try to sew
Reminding myself
You’re not as important
As you would have me think
You are no longer
In control
You’re just
My old
Ego
E.A. Fussell
05.18.2023
Self-reflection can be daunting. Looking at ourselves, really looking, with eyes that see clearly. We realize that often what we see in ourselves, and others, is distorted by fear. Miracles happen when we learn to look through eyes of love. 💗
E.A. Fussell
05.03.2023
May my spirit be
Set a flame with a fire
No manmade thing
Can quench
May I understand
You clothe fields with
Wildflowers
Here today, gone tomorrow
Indicating how much more
You will take care of me
Your love for me
Exceeds all that I can see
Surpasses all that I can Comprehend
I am grateful
For this moment
E.A. Fussell
O5.09.2023
Luke 3:16
Matthew 6:30
“I am willing to let go of my self-doubt. I surrender to self-love.”
The ego fights to dominate our thoughts because it understands if we are willing to let go of self-doubt, then we are willing to let go of ego which is the one feeding our self-doubt.
The world feeds our ego and then ego teaches us that surrendering is a weakness. When in fact surrendering can be one of the strongest things we do. Surrendering to self-love limits the ego and allows our perspective on life to change.
Humans don’t particularly like change, we like familiarity. Change is uncomfortable. There is comfort in familiarity, even when it’s painful. That is one of the reasons we stay in toxic relationships, unhealthy diets, or other situations that aren’t ideal.
Change, and the uncomfortable feeling it brings, is what we must experience to release self-doubt and embrace self-live. Each day we work on loving ourselves we affirm our willingness to change.
This willingness scares our ego so it will create stumbling blocks of resistance. This morning my ego argued with me over the simple act of getting on my knees as an act of surrender. I ignored Gertrude (my ego) and got on my knees anyway.
I am willing to do the work required to change. I am willing to let go of my self-doubt. I surrender to self-love.
E.A. Fussell
05.05.2023
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