You vs You

Same old story

The couch won out

I was on a roll

Then I got worn-out

Took a few days to recoup

Turned into months

Where did all that time go?

Now I’m feeling really stupid

All my fitness progress

Got lost in a few moments

The older I get the harder it is

To dedicate time

To go to the gym

I know

The battle is all in my mind

Well, my dear cousin Debora

Has inspired me

To start over again

It won’t be easy

I might be slow

But all I have to do now

Is get my butt off the couch

And go

Knowing she is doing the same

Will keep me moving

Even if it’s in the slow lane

I’ve set a goal

Squats, planks, running

And handstands

Yes, handstands

By my birthday

In mid-May

Telling myself

“You can do it!

No, you’re not too old!”

E.A. Fussell

02-24-2019

Live Life

The hardest part is deciding

Deciding how I would really like

Like to life my life

Life has taught me hard lessons

Lessons of not attaching

Attaching to things or people

People come and go

Go and leave dreams broken

Broken dreams make it hard

Hard to decide how

How I would really like to live my life

Life was made to be lived

Lived to the fullest including pain

Pain eventually fades

Fades and gives way to hope

Hope in the future and a better time

Time to decide

Decide and imagine

Imagine and live

Live life to its fullest

E.A. Fussell

2/3/2019

Do Not Conform

There is a distant voice

Calling

It gets louder

As I get older

Calling

Do not settle

Do not conform

Calling

Love with abandon

Live with passion

Calling

Stay free

Enjoy each experience

Calling

Seek wisdom

Disregard skeptics

Calling

Take risks

Do not fear pain

Calling

You were created for this moment

Do not let it pass in vain

E.A. Fussell

12/28/2018

When Sense Ratios Change, People Change

Ponder this:

Our central nervous system

A mass of impulses and messages

Flowing constantly

Processing information at warp speed

Connected to the eyes

Can be effected by environment

Media bombards us

With negative images

Evoking an imbalance

In the ratio of our sense preceptors

By overloading us

With negative information

The media changes the ratio

Of our sense preceptors

When sense ratios change

People change

Bombarded by negative information

We become more negative

As individuals, as a society, as a nation

But remember

When sense ratios change

People change

What might happen if

We turned off the media

And took for ourselves

A few minutes

During our waking hour and

Prior to sleep

To gaze at images which inspire us

And listen to music that moves us

And think on things pure and lovely

And fill our central nervous system

With positive information

That we dream on and awaken to

If we did this for a day, week, longer

What might happen to us

As individuals, a society, a nation?

E.A. Fussell

12/24/2018

Starting Over…again

December, the warning flag that another year is about to end and a new one begin. This is the time of year my best friend Sherry “Ladybug” Underwood and I would spend most of our visits reviewing the past year, celebrating our triumphs, and hashing-out disappointments. We would applaud each other on the good things, and encourage each other to let the bad things go. Then we would focus on the new year and new possibilities ahead. We would plot, and plan, and dream. Nothing was too big for our imaginations.

One thing that was always on our list, that I don’t think she would mind sharing, was losing weight and getting healthier. We would make a plan to start January 1st or the Monday closest to it. One of her favorite sayings was “Monday is a good day to start something new.”

Earlier this year she was called home and left this world for a much better one. It feels weird to face December without her.

She would have been my first call when Iweighed this morning and discovered I am within a few pounds of the same weight I was this time last year. She would have heard me cuss-and-fuss and she would have chuckled said something like, “Don’t start a new diet now, wait until the new year and we can start on Monday” chuckling again. And I would be disagreeable, saying something like, “If I wait until then I will have even more weight to lose.” She would patiently listen to my new intention and then cheer me on daily.

Well she’s not here to listen patiently, so I am just throwing my thoughts down on paper…wait this isn’t paper…throwing my thoughts down on a digital screen.

I weighed today. The &@?!$ scale said I weigh 201.8 pounds. Over the past year I have bounced up-and-down between 188-214. I have tried Keto, Vegetarian, Protein Shakes, Fasting, high fat, low fat, no fat blah-blah-blah. This is ridiculous!

My dad recently sent me a program called “FOOD, What The Heck Should I Eat?” by Dr. Mark Hyman. Looks like it is time to start. So, I am starting over…again.

Today, December 1st, 2018, my intention is to use the doctor’s guidelines in FOOD for nutrition. And, my new Fitbit to track my intention of 10,000 steps a day. My weight loss goal is 50 pounds by my birthday in May.

There will be other conversations I miss having with my best friend as I face the future but for now, she is chuckling in my memory, and cheering me on ”5 months, 50 pounds, you can do this!”

E.A. Fussell

12/01/2018

Thanksgiving Weight

Thanksgiving week has been a blast

Gosh, it sure did go by fast

Too much food upon my plate

Now the scale says

I’ve gained a-bunch-of-weight

Headed back to Texas

Jogging suit in hand

Hit the gym early each morning

That’s my plan

I offer you my apologies

In advance

For the motivational posts

You are sure to glance

As I talk-to-myself-out-loud

While I plan and gauge

How to make myself proud

By New Years Day

E.A. Fussell

11/26/2018