An invisible rift runs through me

Created by emotional pain

Failed relationships 

Lost love

Cutting a deep canyon

Dividing my heart and brain

My heart still believes in love  

My flesh still desires marriage 

My mind is practical

Protecting me from more pain

Perhaps I am destined 

It might seem

To walk this earth alone

In my old age

But 

I am never alone 

Divine Trinity 

Is always with me

E.A. Fussell

09.11.2025

Wouldn’t it be nice
To have a magic carpet
Or a Delorean
To travel back in time
Back to the moment
That created our future
Without each other

Sometimes
The blessing
That is right in front of us
Is blocked
By our own self imposed restrictions

Resolute promises
Made to ourself
About what we will or
Will not accept
Based on our belief system

Hindsight has a way
Of clearing one’s vision
Bringing into focus
The cost of rigidity
Causing one to question
Beliefs
While hi-lighting
A possible better choice

If I could go back
Revisit my decision
I like to think
I would be able to see my way
To a different resolution

Alas
No magic carpet floats at my feet
No time machine presents itself
I must accept the consequences
Of choices made
That cast the mold
Of my existence today

E.A. Fussell
08.06.2025

The world
People
Will try to tell you
Who you are
But they can’t really see
You

They only see
Who they want you to be

When
You are strong enough
To hear yourself
You will be able to see
Past your desire
To please others
Or allow their influence

Pause for a moment
What do you hear
Deep inside yourself
Who are you

Truly listen
To your own voice

Everything else
Is just
Background noise

E.A. Fussell
08.01.2025

Meeting new people
Is common
But
To click with someone new
Two souls
Effortlessly connecting
This is
Uncommon

E.A. Fussell
07/20/2025

Shine
Wherever you are
The right ones
Will see you
Not by noise or effort
By your quiet strength
Resilience
Perseverance
A warning to some
A beacon of hope
To others

E.A. Fussell
07.18.2025

Words can plant gardens
Or
Burn whole forests down

I have foolishly
Torched a few forests
In my time

But now
Instead of striking matches
I try to sow encouragement

And
Instead of fire alarms sounding
Flowers sometimes bloom

E.A. Fussell
06.02.2025

Humans have the most resilient hearts. We give huge chunks of it away, with the romantic idea that the one we love will stay. There are a fortunate few who do live happily ever after. But many of us fail. We break, we heal, we try again. Handing over another piece of ourselves, hopeful that the soul receiving it will comprehend how precious and fragile the pieces have become. With each relationship that ends our heart feels dissected, cut up, at an end. Then we patch it up, and rejuvenate a section, in order to give again. Each time our heart breaks we stand amazed when eventually it whispers, “Lets try again.” It’s actually quite amazing, the strength a heart can have.

Added to the broken mess inside our chest, we often have to overcome the devastating loss of our most precious loved ones, who leave us behind, and journey to the other side, put on their wings, and take flight. While our heart goes on relentlessly beating. Forcing us to keep going. Moving us through each day. Mired down in an obstacle course of memories we persevere until the obstacles fade and turn into little hurdles. Then Christmas bells start to chime and we are reminded by Father Time of what used to be, that shall be no more.

Yes, humans have the most resilient heart.

E.A. Fussell
12.14.2024

Your smile
Was priceless
That day
When you bravely
Kept going
Swinging high
Higher
Then leaning back
Until
You were almost
Upside down

You looked at me
And smiled
You, who is afraid
Of heights

E.A. Fussell
05.23.2025

They don’t know it yet
But today will be
The last time
They see each other

Death happens
Life goes on

Divorce happens
Life goes on

Friendships end
Life goes on

Life doesn’t stop for pain
It just keeps going on

While we try to learn
How to live
Without
Pieces of our heart

E.A.Fussell
05.04.2025