snowflakes in an avalanche

“No snowflake in an avalanche ever feels responsible” or is it
“Every snowflake in an avalanche feels responsible”

One of the random thoughts that tossed itself into my mind this morning. Of course, I could have tossed it right back out. But I entertained myself by playing with it for a few minutes.

E.A. Fussel

06.16.2021

Knowledge increaseth sorrow

For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
Ecclesiastes 1:18

Ignorance is bliss
Or so they say
I wish some days
My mind wasn’t curious
And could be satisfied
To just sit still
Not feel compelled
To walk toward the light
Not search for wisdom
Nor seek to ponder
The purpose of life
Especially when
Complex darkness rushes in
Convincing me
There is no purpose in this life
Worth engaging in

E.A. Fussell
O6.14.2021

Step, take them, smaller

Impatience
Can make us take
A step that is too big
Causing disappointment
Which can immobilize us
And take away our reach
In trying to stretch ourselves
We injure ourselves unknowingly
Defeating our own purpose

Having a targeted destination
Keeps us looking forward
But often the sideline view
Is worth pausing for
Allowing us to enjoy the journey
And still reach our destination

It’s okay to have a big goal
It’s okay to rethink
How we reach it

E.A. Fussell
06.02.2021

Death leads to freedom

Death & Freedom
Seem to go hand-in-hand
Death leads to freedom
Regardless of whether it is
A noble soldier on the battlefield
Seeking freedom for their country
Or a patient on the battlefield of disease
Seeking freedom from pain and suffering
Or a drug addict on the battlefield of life
Seeking freedom from their tortured mind
Death leads to freedom in all cases
Then grief engulfs families for decades
The price of freedom is very high
For families of soldiers as well as
For anyone who has lost someone
Who didn’t survive
Their search for freedom

E.A. Fussell
05.31.2021

Bravery or Ignorance

Photo by Robert J Wagner Photography

Bravery
Can
Make
Us
Look
Ignorant
To
Those
Unwilling
To
Take
A
Stand

Ignorance
Can
Make
Us
Look
Brave
To
Those
Unaware
Of
Our
Circumstances

Compromise
Can
Allow
Predator
And
Prey
To sun
On
The
Same
Log
In
The
Middle
Of
The
Day
Without
Letting
Bravery
Or
Ignorance
Get
In
The
Way

E.A. Fussell
05.30.2021

Fragments of life

Fragments


Experiences


Thoughts 


Feelings


Words


Given away

Collected


In different sized pieces


Wondrous 

Glorious

Terrifying


How much there is 

To take

How much we have

To give


A never ending supply

Fragmented pieces

For as long as 


We live

E.A.Fussell

w10.11.2017 

r05.17.2021

Peace somewhere in the pieces

May we find peace
Somewhere In the pieces
When we must come undone

Losing our ability
To hold ourselves together
In the face of life’s tragedies
May we fall apart beautifully

Knowing that eventually
We will pull ourselves back together
Forever changed
With some cracks remaining
But back together all the same

May the cracks in our soul
Created by the lost pieces of ourselves
Shine brightly as beacons
To other suffering beings
Letting them know they are not alone
And that they will survive the pain

E.A. Fussell
05.09.2021

Thoughts can trip you up

Note to self:
Today’s thoughts
Become today’s choices
Which become
Tomorrow’s reality

What reality do you desire
Be mindful of your choices today

Or you might find
That your old thought pattern
Has tripped you up
And landed you on your keister

E.A. Fussell
05.08.2021

As Mother’s Day approaches

Son
Since your death
I’ve been renovating 
Wrecking myself
Crashing down heart walls

Stumbling through the rubble
Of a life wasted 
Pulling invisible cables 
Trying to hoist myself up
Out of the depths of despair 

Depression can’t have me
I’m elevating
Adding multiple floor levels
Insulating and protecting myself
Layering bricks of numbness 

Upward out of the mire
Of should have 
Could have
What if
If only

Tears flow 
Like a fountain
Forming a mote of memories 
Surrounding me
On all sides

My thoughts are the bridge
Separating the fragile glass castle 
Of my heart
From the dark mired forrest of grief 
Threatening to overtake my mind

E.A.Fussell
05.08.2021