Built by mistakes

I’m not proud of all my mistakes, some of them I am ashamed of, and some of them I almost didn’t survive. They have taught me to be strong, to get back up and carry on, and even though I don’t understand much, I do understand that mistakes, more than anything else, have built me.

E.A. Fussell
O7.18.2021

Letting go of Expectations

Living without expectations

Trying to learn how to do it

Forced by life

To understand that

Expectations are useless

And can only lead to misery

When we expect something

And it doesn’t go our way

The way we imagined

Then

Disappointment, frustration or

Heartbreak set in

Our expectations evolve

Over time from

Values, beliefs, experiences

All unique to each of us

So how can we know for sure

That our expectations align

With those of another

We may have

Completely different visions

Playing out in our mind

And then there is life

With it’s own set of complex

Incomprehensible scenarios

Impacting our plans

In ways

We may never understand

When life gives way to death

And loved ones leave us

Through normal courses

Or worse, unexpectedly

We begin to comprehend how

Useless expectations can be

So, here sit I

Clearing my mind

Tapping into primal instinct

Learning how to do it

Living without expectations

E.A. Fussell

07.18.2021

Mastering the mind

Alaska July 2021

Learning to master the mind

Who can do it

It is restless

Impetuous

Rebellious

It twists and turns like the wind

Churns and tosses

Like a mountain stream

Who can control it

It is our closest friend

And our worst enemy

It has brought me

To the highest high

And knocked me to

The lowest low

Still I try to master it

I will continue my entire life

Exploring it

Wrestling with it

And enjoying those moments

We dance and laugh together

Before the battle begins again

Me and my free will

Trying to calm the tumultuous

Pouring out of thoughts

From my wild and reckless

Ever brilliant mind

E.A. Fussell

07.15.2021

You are needed

Do you ever wonder why you are here? Why creation thinks you are needed? Why it was in this era you are needed? I often wonder what I’m supposed to be doing, how am I adding value to existence. Tromping around in the wilderness teaches you how insignificant you are and at the same time observing nature teaches you that even the most insignificant things have a purpose.

E.A. Fussell
07.14.2021

Pause

Bee in Alaska July 2021

I know you are as busy as this bee 🐝 but remember to take a moment for yourself, pause and appreciate something, anything;
Smile and go on with your day

E.A. Fussell
07.12.2021

Let’s go for a walk

Cooper Landing, Alaska July 2021

Come walk with me

Or just sit and talk for a while

Most are welcome

But not all

If you join me

I will adjust my step

To match your pace

For a time

Then I will travel my own path

Leaving you with memories

Without having met me

You may never have had

E.A. Fussell

07.10.2021

Let’s go

Summer Hiking is finally here
What better way to celebrate
Than investing in new gear
Lightweight hiking shoes
Great for climbing over rocks or
Splashing through streams
Places that I know
Some places of my dreams
Wilderness
As far as the eye can see
Is beckoning me

E.A. Fussell
06.22.2021

snowflakes in an avalanche

“No snowflake in an avalanche ever feels responsible” or is it
“Every snowflake in an avalanche feels responsible”

One of the random thoughts that tossed itself into my mind this morning. Of course, I could have tossed it right back out. But I entertained myself by playing with it for a few minutes.

E.A. Fussel

06.16.2021

Knowledge increaseth sorrow

For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
Ecclesiastes 1:18

Ignorance is bliss
Or so they say
I wish some days
My mind wasn’t curious
And could be satisfied
To just sit still
Not feel compelled
To walk toward the light
Not search for wisdom
Nor seek to ponder
The purpose of life
Especially when
Complex darkness rushes in
Convincing me
There is no purpose in this life
Worth engaging in

E.A. Fussell
O6.14.2021

Step, take them, smaller

Impatience
Can make us take
A step that is too big
Causing disappointment
Which can immobilize us
And take away our reach
In trying to stretch ourselves
We injure ourselves unknowingly
Defeating our own purpose

Having a targeted destination
Keeps us looking forward
But often the sideline view
Is worth pausing for
Allowing us to enjoy the journey
And still reach our destination

It’s okay to have a big goal
It’s okay to rethink
How we reach it

E.A. Fussell
06.02.2021