Starting again
Trying to understand
Why
I keep making progress
Then sliding backwards
Losing
Gaining
Losing
So tired of this yo-yo-ing
Ready to be at goal
Feeling on the cusp
Of that place where I either
Sit on another endless plateau
Or worse
Start gaining
Determined
To move further
Downward
On the infernal scale
I will make goal next year
I will see more positive results
I will change up my plans of
Eating and exercise
And kick my own butt
Over this depressing hill
Thankfully
I will end 2020 with
Significantly less body mass
Than when the year started
Twenty pounds gone
Is a good thing
But I still have
Another thirty to go
So as the new year begins
A new goal is set
A new plan envisioned
And yes, I am holding onto hope
This battle will finally be won
Holding fast as I push forward
Starting again
E.A. Fussell
12.28.2020
