The bravest thing I ever did
Was continue to live
The day you died
Those who see me now
Will never know
The pain I’m in
Or the grief I battle
Each and every day
In a multitude of ways
They can not see
My heart
Ripped and torn
Thinking about
The day you were born
They can not see
My tortured mind
Tangled up
In the ties that bind
A mother to her son
They can not see me
When I’m driving along and
Your favorite song comes on
A memory flashes
The tears freely flow
I see your smiling face
I hear your voice
I reach out to hug you
But you’re only a vapor
Drifting around in my mind
If I seem distant to others
It’s because I am
A part of me
Has left this place
It is gone forever
My heart
Is wherever you are
Happy Birthday Derreck
Love, mom
E.A. Fussell
04.15.2021
In loving memory of my son Timothy Derrreck Howard
04/15/1983 – 01/20/2021
E. A. Fussell 