Wait on the Lord

But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31 KJV
Note to self: “Wait” is the key word in this scripture. Be still, don’t get in too big of a hurry. Listen, rest, refresh, renew. Then plow forward. If you fail to wait upon the Lord you may take the wrong path, forfeit His help and miss out on divine endurance.

E.A.Fussell
10.22.2021

Spiritual gifts & talents

During my morning walk. I was thinking about all the many ways I have failed in life. So, of course, that led to thinking about my accomplishments in order not to feel bad about myself. I’ve had some horrible failures and some amazing accomplishments. The magnitude of each may not have been recognized without the contrast of the other.

Have you ever pondered the theory that we aren’t taking any of our accomplishments or failures with us to the next life, all we are taking is our character?

It isn’t an amusing thought for me. Character, the same one that has propelled me to success and to the depths of failure, that’s what I have with me as I meet God, Jesus, the Saints, and angels? Seriously, thank heaven for mercy and grace!

Oh sure there are some things I might say are good about myself. My work ethic is phenomenal, my boldness is legendary, my intelligence is sufficient, my common sense is sound, my love is passionate. Like most people I’ve been educated in proper processes, maximizing resources, the latest how-to’s to handle todo’s, efficient organization, team building, self-motivation, effective communication. And like most people I was encouraged from a young age to be a good person, a productive law-abiding citizen, a hard worker, a loyal friend, a responsible adult.

It’s not the outward obvious things that bother me about myself, it’s the innermost workings of my mind and heart that give me cause for pause. Perhaps it’s the rapidly changing times we are living through that make me wonder, will I stand firm on my beliefs regardless of who is shaking their finger in my face? Or will I be like Peter and betray my closest friend?

Character, the inward part of ourselves that only we know, is the most important and the most difficult part of ourselves to face, to control, to change, to accept, to live with, to carry with us into the next life. Our personality and outward appearance seem to get most of our attention and although those things can be challenging, they aren’t as difficult, or scary, as looking inward.

Lord, teach us how to focus on building the character traits You want to see in us. Show each of us what our spiritual gifts and talents are, the ones You embedded in our core being before we were born to this life. Instruct us on how to integrate them with our personality to successfully maneuver through the physical world while winning battles for You in the spiritual world.

E.A. Fussell
09.12.2021

Free Will

Alaska July 2021

The gift of free will allows us to choose what path we will take. Choose our beliefs, what standards we hold ourselves and others to, what things we regard as important, honorable, admirable. Our choices may not align with each other. That’s the beauty of free will, you choose for you, I choose for me, we do not have to agree. The most significant part of this gift from our Creator is that we don’t even have to agree with Him. He will not force us to follow His way. He leaves it up to us to choose the consequences we face through the choices that we make.

How do we decide what we believe? Many beliefs get programmed into us through family, culture, school, religion, philosophy, education, propaganda. Strong influencers in our lives can make it difficult for us to think for ourselves when we are younger. As we mature other factors enter in like making a living, lack of time, distractions of life, rebelliousness, or just plain laziness all can get in the way of self-analysis. Regardless of why we believe what we believe, in the end when we leave this life to face the next, the only person held accountable for what we believe is ourselves. There won’t be a free pass because someone taught us the wrong thing to believe.

I am always questioning my beliefs to make sure they are my own. Life offers many opportunities to question what the heck is going on and what my belief is. Questioning can lead to deeper understanding, new realization or leave me scratching my head still wondering what the heck? My beliefs are deep rooted and solid in some areas and very pliable in others. Some beliefs I have held tightly to because they have proven themselves true. Others entwine around me and try to bind me up even though I have tried to shake them in numerous ways, they are societies programming that I am constantly trying to cleanse myself of. Certain beliefs pressed on me by well-meaning religious teachers have required significant re-programming of my mind.

It would be easier not to self-analyze. Just go with the flow, be politically correct, follow the latest trends, listen to the preacher, do whatever the government told me to. I’ve tried those approaches a few times in my life when I’ve been exhausted or disheartened. In the end going with the flow somehow always rubs me the wrong way and I eventually wake up and return to my own way. Bold, direct, not politically correct, reading and studying the Bible for myself.

The war to influence our free will is ancient. Competition, jealousy, fear and hate mongering have always been tools the enemy used to control our emotions and work against us. The speed of the internet increases the velocity at which information penetrates our mind and diminishes our ability to decipher one attack before the next one is hitting us. The warfare takes on many forms: political affiliation, color of skin, religion, national origin, sexual orientation. Those shrouds of keeping us stirred up were used covertly up until a few years ago when the enemy became bolder. The camouflage has faded on the shroud of traditional palatable areas of propaganda. Now the war is visible outright as it blatantly rages against our free will and the freedom to exercise it.

Tactics of overwhelm are used as we are bombarded with information and no time to determine fact from fiction before the next barrage is poured out upon us. So much information, so much distraction. Wars and rumors of wars, viruses, wild weather, wild fires, racial injustice, sexual slavery, corruption under every stone. Tying us up in emotions of fear, anger, hate, rage, discouragement, helplessness. They poke and gouge and push our buttons getting us to put love on the back burner and battle with each other on our own soil, in our own homes, with our own friends and family. Their goal is that we don’t use the most powerful gift we were given. They want us to stop thinking for ourselves, stop being accountable for our own actions, stop using our mind, stop critical thinking, stop common sense reasoning, stop exercising our free will.

There is a fanatical radical in each of us, whether we yell at the top of our lungs on public domains or quietly plug along screaming silently, internally. We are creatures vibrating with energy from the electric current coursing through our being that is hard wired to emotion and feelings created in the very image of God Himself by His own hand. With our first breath we are designed to be ever seeking homeostasis and survival at all costs. Fight or flight is a continual unconscious question that our body/mind/spirit is asking itself. Each of us deals with the answer differently. Some people run to the fight, some run for safety, some sit still a little longer than others trying to figure out what the truth is.

The powers that be in this world are seeking to crush and control us. They understand and utilize the weapons of biology, psychology and spirituality. Fatiguing our systems, creating brain fog, depressive moods, trying to deplete our energy so that we are unable to process information, trying to create a sense of hopelessness so that we will grab onto any little pleasure they throw in front of us to numb the pain. Traditionally the pain killers were sports, shopping, cooking, eating, alcohol, drugs, pornography. Now they have added things like celebrity gossip, silly tiktok videos, and ignorant milk crate challenges. Anything they can use to influence and direct the masses is being used. They bombard us with bad news, upon bad news, upon bad news and offer us easily accessible pleasurable entertaining distractions from the bad news. Each is a tactic to control our thinking, to crush our free will. Filling our conscious and subconscious minds with propaganda promoting the direction they want us to move. They move us in masses, as if we were cattle, in whatever direction they choose.

Ponder this: The battle for our soul is the enemy’s ultimate goal. Have you ever thought about how precious our soul must be that such a divisive battle has been waged for it?

Death is eminent from our first breath. We are required to be prepared to meet our Creator. Today if the Taliban, or the little guy in Korea, or the intelligent guy in Russia, or the ancient Chinese, or our own elected president marches into our home and kills us we will be standing before our maker explaining why we believe what we believe.

What do I believe? I believe I’ll continue to take a moment each day to think about what I believe and make sure it is my own belief, then I will conduct myself accordingly regardless of what anyone else believes.

E.A. Fussell
08.29.2021

Pray Dangerously

I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty.
Revelation 1:8 KJV

What are you asking God for?

Through prayer

You have access to the Almighty

The One who created all things

He is the beginning and the ending

All knowledge resides in Him

All power resides in Him

Through faith and belief in Christ

The authority of God’s power

Transfers to you

What are you asking God for?

To keep you safe?

To help you have a nice day?

To help your team win?

To heal an illness?

Try asking him for something

More dangerous

Try praying like David

Search me, O God

And know my heart

Try me

And know my thoughts

And see

If there be any wicked way in me

And lead me in the way everlasting

Praying like this invites God

To have an intimate relationship

With you

It accepts that you acknowledge

His ability to know your thoughts

And love you anyway

It gives Him your permission

To enter your mind

The most dangerous place

For Him to be

The most powerful place

For you to allow Him access

Letting God into our heart

Is easy

But allowing Him into our mind

That’s true vulnerability

Yes, He has the ability

To enter our mind

At any time

But He allows us free will

And will only activate His Holy Spirit

When we invite Him in

Most of us only invite Him

Into our heart

We keep our thoughts hidden

Allowing darkness to lurk and play

Live dangerously

Invite God into your mind

Fair warming

Your thoughts create your reality

If you pray

Psalms 139:23-24

Earnestly

Sincerely

Your world will change

Which does not necessarily mean

It will get more comfortable

It’s your choice

You may stay with the safety

Of your regular daily prayers

Or you may choose

To live more dangerously

E.A. Fussell

12.13.2020

Ready me for daily battle

Lord

Forgive me of my sins

Forgive me my need

To ask you again and again

Help me be a good warrior

Hearing You

Following Your Word

This world gets so loud

Sometimes I allow it

To drown You out

Forgive me

Help me go where You say go

Help me stay when You say

Be still

Help me daily put on the armor

You have provided for me

And not forget a single piece

Help me skillfully wield

The sword of the Spirit

Give me eyes that see

Ears that hear

Divine knowledge

Understanding

Wisdom

Teach me Your ways

Let me not depart from them

May all those reading these words

Be hugged by You

Soften their hearts

Touch them in a real

And wonderful way

That they may know

You are the King of kings

Lord of lords

According to Your will

Amen

E.A. Fussell

5.24.2020

Our only Control

The only thing we really have control over is our thoughts. Thoughts create feelings. Feelings create action. Action creates results. We must take our thoughts captive and cast down negative imaginations and every thing that would exalt itself above the power of our God.

E.A. Fussell

03.19.2020

2Corinthians 10:3-5 KJV
For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ

Investment

Our God is a jealous God. He wants your love.

Satan is an enemy of God. He loves to mock God and wants to steal your love and time from God. That old devil will try every way he can to deceive you and distract you by setting other things up in your thoughts to take priority over God.

Take a moment to ponder how often you expressed love for our Heavenly Father this past week. You had 168 hours, how much of it was invested in your relationship with our Heavenly Father?

Did you find yourself lost in life, feeling like there was just not enough time to do all the things you needed to get done? The idea that we are “too busy” is one of the greatest tools Our enemy has created to get inside our minds and manipulate us. I am guilty of falling into this trap, are you?

What might happen this week if you and I make a conscious effort to spend focused time with God?

Praying, reading His Word, worshiping Him during a walk in nature, helping someone, studying a scripture, sitting quietly and listening for His Spirit, dancing joyously through our home as we sing praises to His holy name.

There are so many ways to love God when we aren’t distracted by other thoughts and priorities.

E.A. Fussell

11/17/2019

Life cannot beat God

I’ve hated this woman

I’ve fed her lies

Told her

She wasn’t good enough

Allowed others

To treat her that way

I’ve tried to break her

In many ways

I’ve crashed her marriages

Broken her heart

Fed drugs to her son

Tried to rip him apart

I’ve taken her best friends

Sent some to early graves

I’ve moved her

To places where

She knows no-one

I’ve given her great wealth

Then taken it all away

I have temporarily paralyzed her

Sent illness

And depression

Tried to make her fear

What might happen next

I’ve made her feel like a failure

As a wife

As a mother

As a daughter

As a sister

As a friend

Yes, I’ve hated this woman

By now she should be broken

But still she stands

Still she smiles

Still she believes that

I cannot beat her

She see’s through me

I am only life

And she knows

She was created by God

For His purpose not mine

E.A. Fussell

9/21/2019

Majesty

To look on Your majesty

And still not see

To be touched by

Your Holy Spirit

And still not feel

To be swept up in a birds song

And still not hear

I can’t imagine any such numbness

When I look upon

Your majestic works

I see Your Glory and understand

What a creative force You are

When Your Holy Spirit’s touch

Raises me above life’s battles

Comforts me, encourages me

I feel You right here with me

When a bird’s song joins with

The rest of nature in symphony

I hear the beauty

Of Your essence

You are the one true Living God

The Master Creator

The Great I Am

E.A. Fussell

9/13/2019

Wild & Free

Maps form invisible layers

Like imaginary tattoos

Inside this energy body

That I occupy

For now

This body allows gravity

To hold me down

Keeps my feet on firm ground

One day this body and I

Will say our last good bye

And the Spirit in me

Will take it’s leave

Zipping through the ether

Wild and free

E.A.Fussell

9/7/2019