Sometimes I dream of a large table filled with family and friends. We talk and laugh and reminisce. Our time together is truly priceless.
But these days family and friends are scattered across the globe. Getting everyone together is not feasible. The cost of such a venture would be unreasonable.
So I dream.
I dream of a large table filled with family and friends.
We talk.
We laugh.
We reminisce.
Our time together is truly priceless.
E.A. Fussell
We waste
so much time
waiting…
for the weekend,
for the right moment,
for the season to change,
for a good job,
for vacation,
for the right person to come along….
the unknown future
is a theif that steals
the known moment at hand.
Do what you can
with what you have in front of you
right now.
E.A. Fussell
I will never be one
to just blindly fall
instep with the herd.
And it has caused me
much grief in this life,
Being willful and unconforming
to this world.
Sometimes
I wish I could be different,
Less straight-forward,
More submissive.
I wonder if my rough edges
were smoother,
Would my life be too?
And if it were,
Would I then long
for mischeif?
E.A.Fussell
“The best time for a new beginning is “now”. Go ahead, take that step you have been afraid to take. Move your life to the next level. You’ve got nothing to lose and so much to gain. You can do it! Take the step.”
Sermon to myself this morning
E.A. Fussell
A head full of fears
has no room to dream…
To onlookers, an inevitable
crash it would seem…
To us, a risk
that might cause us to believe…
In love, sweet love
and fill our head
with dreams….
E.A.Fussell
At any given moment
the choices we make
can change the direction
that our lives forever take.
Some choices fence us in,
some set us free.
Often it is after we make them
That we learn which one it will be,
fenced in, or free.
At any given moment
the choice is ours to make.
E.A.Fussell
WRINKLES AT BAY
When I was young
the value of my beauty
I did not fully understand,
But now, as I age
the cost I comprehend.
If I had realized back then
wrinkles cannot be held at bay,
I may have lived my life
In a very different way.
More laughter and sun bathing,
laugh lines be damned
More tequila and much dancing
that would be my plan.
I would let the wrinkles come,
bathed by the sun,
and wear out the soles
of many boots
while having lots of fun.
E.A.Fussell
I was talking with my heart
And I asked why they call it
“Falling head over heels”
I mean, after all don’t we walk around
With our head over our heels all the time?
Shouldn’t it be called heels over head or boots over head?
My heart replied “head, heels, boots….whatever….I’ve unexpectedly and Divinely fallen and don’t intend to get up.”
E.A.Fussell
One of those days
when you aren’t sure
if the bus
is going to
pick you up
or run you over
but
you remain calm
in the middle
of the chaos.
E.A. Fussell
The story and poem behind this photo:
The story:
In 2013 a wonderful man, a man I will always love, had proposed to me and I had said yes. But when he placed the engagement ring on my finger the fear of failure overtook me. I could not stand the thought of another divorce. He tried to assure me we would not be another statistic but the pain of my past was too big.
This photo was taken the afternoon of our breakup. I stopped at a park to go for a walk and try to get control of my emotions. A few weeks prior a word of prophecy had been spoken over me at an event I attended with Kathy Allendorfer I won’t go into details but it involved butterflies. This butterfly was so beautiful and somehow I felt that it was a tangible sign from God that He was with me as I cried out to him in my pain.
The Poem: Broken Promises
We talked for hours
You made me laugh
Surprised me with gifts
Didn’t care about my past
I loved you more
than words could say
And it broke my heart
To have to walk away
You promised me
Everything I had ever wanted
Travel, Adventure, Security
But my heart was scarred and haunted
The cuts and brands of divorce
Created within me a deep
and terrible fear
I never expected to run
Until the ring appeared
Broken promises
Four times before
Suddenly I realized
I just couldn’t do this anymore
Marriage was once
my favorite thing
Now it’s just an illusive fantasy
And my love for you a forever dream
E. A. Fussell 