Tag: love

Watermelon and Love

Watermelon has always represented love to me. One of my favorite memories as a child is eating an iced down watermelon. Daddy or Grandpa would get a watermelon from one of the local South Florida farmers, put it in a cooler and cover it in ice. Anticipating the sweetness to come would occupy my thoughts as I played and tried to forget the deliciousness chilling in the cooler on the porch. Eventually, after several hours, usually in the heat of the mid-afternoon, one of them would take out the glorious treat, slice it up and each family member would get a delicious piece.

Daddy and grandpa are no longer in this dimension of life but I picked up a watermelon Friday and have been enjoying the sweetness of the fruit and the priceless memories. Daddy played an instrumental part in my relationship with God. He taught me many things, especially how to turn from this world and seek my Heavenly Father.

This world will work to tear you down, your family, your relationships, your Spirit. This Father’s Day I offer a prayer for you:

Lord, please be with the person reading this, bless them in a special way. You know their needs, You know their struggles, You know their unspoken pain. Answer their needs Lord. Help them to remember that You are their Heavenly Father, provider, protector, guide. Comfort them, encourage them, enlighten them, give them the answers they seek, draw them close to You. Let them feel Your presence. Let them know they are loved and they are precious to You.

E.A. Fussell
06.18.2023

Love is everywhere

There are all kinds of Love. Gentle, tough, unconditional, conditional, friends, family, lovers, spouses, platonic, passionate. Just for today, or even just the next hour, try seeing everything around you as an expression of Love. Including yourself.

It’s easy to see Love in flowers, sun shine, a smile on a loved ones face. But stretch that organ between your ears and imagine that even an annoying pothole or the frown on a stranger’s face are expressions of Love toward you.

Maybe the pothole is a reminder to slow down and take care of yourself, it offers an example of what happens when we just keep overlooking a small problem. When we continually ignore little issues in the road of our life the situation keeps eroding until it is an annoying or dangerous pothole.

Maybe the frown on a stranger’s face is a silent cry for someone, anyone, to show they care, even if it’s only through your smile back at their frown. When we see someone frowning it brings our energy level down a notch, maybe Love sent them to remind you that your energy reflects itself on those around you. Smile more, even if no one smiles back. 😊

Love surrounds you, even when you don’t notice it or accept it. 💞

E.A. Fussell
06.09.2023

Happy 38th Birthday Son

The bravest thing I ever did

Was continue to live

The day you died

Those who see me now

Will never know

The pain I’m in

Or the grief I battle

Each and every day

In a multitude of ways

They can not see

My heart

Ripped and torn

Thinking about

The day you were born

They can not see

My tortured mind

Tangled up

In the ties that bind

A mother to her son

They can not see me

When I’m driving along and

Your favorite song comes on

A memory flashes

The tears freely flow

I see your smiling face

I hear your voice

I reach out to hug you

But you’re only a vapor

Drifting around in my mind

If I seem distant to others

It’s because I am

A part of me

Has left this place

It is gone forever

My heart

Is wherever you are

Happy Birthday Derreck

Love, mom

E.A. Fussell

04.15.2021

In loving memory of my son Timothy Derrreck Howard

04/15/1983 – 01/20/2021

None of my exes live in Texas

True story:

This afternoon as I was checking out at a local store in Lago Vista, Texas the cashier exclaimed,

“I know you!”

I looked at her in bewilderment because I didn’t recall ever having seen her before.

She continued, “Didn’t your ex-husband used to work down the street at the Dollar General?”

I chuckled, “No, all of my

ex-husbands live in Florida and none of them ever worked at Dollar General.”

She laughed, “All! How many do you have?”

I replied, “Let’s just say my song would be titled:

🎶 None of my exes live in Texas 🎶

Then I gathered my bags and gestured goodbye as she chuckled to herself trying to guess the number that I refused to disclose.

E.A. Fussell

10/13/2019

Release Me

Somewhere there is a key

To the rusty heart

Beating in me

If someone finds it

The question is

Will it still fit

Maybe it’s not really lost

But still held in the hand

Of the one whom I loved most

Perhaps one day

He will return

With promises to stay

Will rust and decay

Built up over time

Block the lock, keep him away

Or will a stranger

Take a risk

Ignore the danger

Steal the key

That’s wasting away

Force the lock

And release me

E.A. Fussell

8/13/2019

Peek-A-Boo

Peek-a-boo

I see you

Trying to get a glimpse of me

You’re filled with curiosity

My face is seldom seen

In photos or on the big screen

Am I beautiful or homely

In a relationship or lonely

Do I work more or play

On any given day

It’s not that simple

But I will offer an example

I am an eclectic mix

Can be an exotic fix

I believe in common sense

And happenstance

Work comes first

Then I play with a burst

You’ll seldom see me in a crowd

You might see me in a cloud

Flying high above the earth

Knowing well my full worth

Relationships are not for me

Lonely…no that’s not me

Unhindered by commitment

I enjoy the merriment

But don’t try to fence me in

That’s a challenge you won’t win

Just accept me as I am

And don’t ask me to make plans

E.A.Fussell

8/11/2029

Pirates We Be

Come sail with me

Pirates we be

Riding the high sea

Looking for treasure

The kind that can’t be measured

It lurks in the invisible mist

On the winds of imagination

It will grant our every wish

Whatever our minds can conjure

If our hearts can endure

It’s a treasure for sure

Riding the high sea

Pirates we be

Come sail with me

E.A. Fussell

8/3/2019

Once You Love Me

Be aware

If you’re going to love me

You will never forget me

Long after I’m gone

I will play in your heart

And in your mind

Fading out for a little while

Returning vividly

When a certain song comes on

A certain movie scene plays

A bell rings, or a bird sings

Sometimes the memory of me

Will jump right up out of nowhere

And consume you for a moment

Or two

You will hear my laughter

See my smile

The passion we shared

Cannot be undone

A thread woven thru time

Entwining our lives

I don’t really understand it

But I know it exists

Once you love me

Even when we’re not together

We will visit each other

In a world outside of this

Your lips will still feel my lips

Skin on skin

Hearts racing

Call it a dream, a memory

Call it what you will

The fact remains still

You will never forget me

Once you love me

E.A. Fussell

7/28/2019