Hiding the true you

Who is living your life

The image your parents created

The image your partner created

The image your children created

The image your co-workers created

The image your ego mind created

Who is living your life

When you were born

You came here as nobody

Then somebody put a name on you

Somebody started telling you

Who you are

And it continued throughout your life

Maybe the you

That you portray

Really is the inner you

But some

Have never expressed their true self

They keep it hidden

Under what the world

Tells them they should be

Knowing our true selves

Is the simplest thing we can do

But definitely not the easiest

To empty the ego mind

Of all its senseless chatter

In order to hold our core mind

In the heart center

Takes a strong desire

To get rid of

All the veils of identity

This doesn’t mean the veils

Can’t be put back on

All of them or selected ones

To allow the world to see us

As it thinks we are

It simply means

That we are no longer

Triggered by thoughts or emotions

We are no longer bound

By what others think

They can think whatever they want

They can see whatever they want

As we rest in the center of our being

Knowing who we are

Regardless of which hat

We chose to wear

E.A. Fussell

10.04.2020

What will get you farther

Once upon a time

Two stubborn beings

Crossed path

The thinker decided

They could get farther

If they rode together

One upon the other

The stronger one agreed

To this partnership

And offered up its back

The thinker climbed aboard

Then desire to lead took over

The thinker squirmed and kicked

The stronger one stood still

Amused at the thinker’s

Lack of riding skill

The thinker became annoyed

Demanded the stronger one move

Heels kicked up

The thinker flew through the air

Meeting the ground with a thud

The stronger stood still

Waiting for the response

The thinker slowly arose

Brushed off itself from head to toe

Stomped over to the stronger

Stood for a moment

Thought about going on alone

Looked up the path that now

Seemed somehow longer

Then turned to the stronger

Okay, you can lead

The stronger gave

A delighted bray

The thinker climbed aboard

Letting the reins fall loosely

And easily they departed

E.A. Fussell

10.03.2020

Ponder this:

the thinker is like our ego mind

the stronger is like our inner being

Existence

Photo by Anfield Photography

Longing for a time simpler

When life existed of

Basic chores

Gardening

Cooking

Cleaning

Neighborly acts

No scheduled meetings

No clock to punch

No negotiations

No analysis of facts

The mind is a master manipulator

Making us think we want more

When all we need

Are the basic chores

E.A. Fussell

10.01.2020

Not easily broken

This photo by Tabe Aulikki Slioor Knight of a sunset at Bishops Beach in Homer, Alaska inspired this poem:

What do you see

When you look at me

Three posts

Randomly stuck in the sand

Or a much bigger plan

Do you see

Family bound together by love

Supporting each other

As the waves of life

Ebb and flow

On the ever changing shore

Or

Do you see

We three

Spirit, body, mind

Bound together by awareness

Standing the test of time

Battling programmed consciousness

Or do you see

Chapter four

Verse twelve

Ecclesiastes

E. A. Fussell

O9.29.2020

Be vulnerable

Trust the process

Evolving

Requires

Releasing

Releasing

Requires

Courage

Courage

Requires

Faith

Faith

Requires

Trust

Trust

Requires

Vulnerability

Vulnerability

A pre-requisite of

Evolving

Believe this

It will all be okay

In the end

Trust the process

E.A. Fussell

09.28.2020

Self Awareness

Trying to release the ego

And get to the center of

I AM

That place where the kingdom of God

Is within

Should be simple

But the ego mind is a fighter

It’s like a snapping turtle that latches on

Until lightning strikes

Try letting the mind go

Sit quietly

Releasing every conscious thought

Letting the awareness that

Sits in the center and knows

Come forward

The true self

Part of the Master Creator

As awareness rises

The mind will bring

All sorts of trivial chatter

To distract, manipulate, control

Anything to keep your attention

Because it knows

Wherever attention goes

Determines what exists

Without attention

The ego ceases to exist

So it jumps up and down

Grabs and hooks the attention

By any means

But one day lightening does strike

Releasing the jaws of the snapping turtle

Maybe it’s gradual an accumulation

Of consistent practices

Maybe it’s a profound instant event

But if the desire to know ones true self

Is strong enough

The lightening will strike

Understanding will light up the inside

From the place of deepest awareness

The transformation can be subtle

Or extremely obvious

Some onlookers may not recognize

The change in you

Too lost in their own ego mind

Some will find the change frightening

Unnerving them

That your triggers can no longer

Be triggered

A few onlookers will recognize

The source of your light

True self glowing with awareness

And will stand in awe

Wishing and hoping

One day they

Will experience the same

E.A. Fussell

09.26.2020

Seeing Red

Flexibility

Acceptance

Tolerance

Ebb and flow around me

Until you push too far

When

I’ve had enough

Then

Raw unbridled

Stubbornness

Takes hold

As I stand my ground

Solidly

Unyielding

Feet planted

Head down

Ready

For any maneuver

Your manipulative mind

Thinks it can get past me

So go ahead

Do your thing

I don’t mind

But

Push too far

A raging bull

You will find

E.A. Fussell

09.24.2020