Trying to release the ego
And get to the center of
I AM
That place where the kingdom of God
Is within
Should be simple
But the ego mind is a fighter
It’s like a snapping turtle that latches on
Until lightning strikes
Try letting the mind go
Sit quietly
Releasing every conscious thought
Letting the awareness that
Sits in the center and knows
Come forward
The true self
Part of the Master Creator
As awareness rises
The mind will bring
All sorts of trivial chatter
To distract, manipulate, control
Anything to keep your attention
Because it knows
Wherever attention goes
Determines what exists
Without attention
The ego ceases to exist
So it jumps up and down
Grabs and hooks the attention
By any means
But one day lightening does strike
Releasing the jaws of the snapping turtle
Maybe it’s gradual an accumulation
Of consistent practices
Maybe it’s a profound instant event
But if the desire to know ones true self
Is strong enough
The lightening will strike
Understanding will light up the inside
From the place of deepest awareness
The transformation can be subtle
Or extremely obvious
Some onlookers may not recognize
The change in you
Too lost in their own ego mind
Some will find the change frightening
Unnerving them
That your triggers can no longer
Be triggered
A few onlookers will recognize
The source of your light
True self glowing with awareness
And will stand in awe
Wishing and hoping
One day they
Will experience the same
E.A. Fussell
09.26.2020
E. A. Fussell 