Mother’s Day
So many memories
Memories of my Granny
She was the most precious
Woman in my life
My best friend
She is missed every day
Memories of my mother
We have a
Complicated relationship
But have grown a little closer
As we age
Memories of my mother’s in-law
All strong women
All good friends to me
Memories of my children
Two who didn’t survive
And most importantly
Memories of my son
The most precious gift
Of this life
If time could be turned back
My choices during his childhood
Would be different
Work would not be part of my life
My time would be invested
Completely in being a mother
If I had focused more
On spending time with him
Playing, fishing, coloring, reading, talking
Teaching him how to
Build his character
Instead of focusing my time
On building houses
Maybe then my son would be able
To make better life choices for himself
His potential is astounding
If only he could break-a-way
From the darkness that holds him down
Feeling like you failed as a mother
Is the absolute worst feeling
More painful than any other
E.A. Fussell
05/13/2018
E. A. Fussell 