Being alone
It has become my addiction
To tuck myself away from the world
After my work day
Curl up with a good book
Or a mindless show
Turn the ringer off my phone
Escape into a world of thought
Filled with ideas of what I will do when I retire
Hoping I live to see the day
Instead of scheduling subcontractors and chasing materials and solving problems all day
I will fill my time with writing and sketching and creating fountains and exploring the wilderness and making videos and learning new things
I will wade off into the countryside and not be heard from for weeks
Reappearing occasionally to post photos or videos to document what I learn
At one time I thought it might be nice to share life with someone but I have distanced myself to the point that I am no longer interested in sharing myself with any one
There just isn’t enough of me to go around
So I conserve myself and only let a rare few glimpse my world up close
Mostly you must view my kingdom from afar
I will share it with you briefly from time to time and hopefully it will encourage or entertain you for a moment and in that brief moment neither of us will feel alone
E.A. Fussell
12/21/2019
E. A. Fussell 