Standing here
Wounded
Afraid to move forward
Stuck in the pain of the past
Not realizing it until I tried to move
“What if’s” dulling my motivation
Clouding enthusiasm
Bringing up past rejection
All the work I’ve done on myself
I thought the pain was gone
I was sure I was ready
To start a new chapter
Placing my hand on the door
Ready to open it
Fear washes over me
Engulfing me
Reminding me
Of all my failures
Sadness sets in as I watch my hand
Retract itself from the handle
Standing here
Looking at the door
Hoping I can overcome these emotions
Go ahead and open the door
Step into the unknown
Before I turn and go running
Back to the safety of the known
E.A. Fussell
11.08.2020
E. A. Fussell 