Opening the door

Standing here

Wounded

Afraid to move forward

Stuck in the pain of the past

Not realizing it until I tried to move

“What if’s” dulling my motivation

Clouding enthusiasm

Bringing up past rejection

All the work I’ve done on myself

I thought the pain was gone

I was sure I was ready

To start a new chapter

Placing my hand on the door

Ready to open it

Fear washes over me

Engulfing me

Reminding me

Of all my failures

Sadness sets in as I watch my hand

Retract itself from the handle

Standing here

Looking at the door

Hoping I can overcome these emotions

Go ahead and open the door

Step into the unknown

Before I turn and go running

Back to the safety of the known

E.A. Fussell

11.08.2020

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