Dear Women,

Why do we think we have to prove

We can be as strong as men

Why do we laugh

In our Creator’s face

Saying I don’t like

Your master design

I’ll show you

I can be different

Than you in tended me to be

Men were designed

To be stronger than us

To be more focused than us

To provide for us

We were designed

To be helpers of men

Not leaders over them

Subtleness

Is our power and strength

Yet we boldly started going about

Loudly proclaiming

Our demands

Dominating became our plan

Instead of working

In the background

Building castles

Creating empires

Raising warriors

We threw it all away

In our desire to reign

Things got really twisted

Men are becoming weaker

As the scale wobbles

In the ongoing battle

Between what nature intended

And what we are trying to capsize

E.A.Fussell

11.07.2020

I know you’re lyin’

cause your lips are movin’

It might be funny

If it didn’t hurt so much Honey

I believed you when you said

To me you would always be wed

Then I saw her text

It was obvious y’all were havin’ sex

You tried to tell me she was just a friend

But sin is sin

Even if it is

Kept between friends

Trust broken is difficult to repair

I’ll go my way

You stay right here

Love sucks

And life isn’t fair

I’ll get over it in time

Maybe one day true love I will find

You take care and be prepared

When I’m out of sight

I won’t be out of your mind

E.A. Fussell

06.06.2011

Please don’t try to fix me

I would ask you to understand me

But how could I ask such a thing

When I don’t even

Understand myself

Sometimes

I get sad

My energy gets low

I just need time alone

So alone I go

Secluding myself

Within myself

Shutting out the world

Restoring my vitality

Improving my soul

Eventually I let the world back in

For a time

I never know how long

The season of allowing

Will last

Before the season of alone

Begins again

The alone season is just as

Unpredictable

It can be a day, a week, a month

Until I feel able

To face the push and pull

Of other souls

All going about their normal life

Oblivious of my strife

My smile hides it well

Only a few other seasoned souls

Can tell

Through the light in my eyes

They know it well

They live it too

Something unexplainable inside

Sometimes dim

Sometimes bright

E.A. Fussell

11.07.2020

Death comes

Whether we are ready or not

Age doesn’t matter

Goodness of heart doesn’t matter

Death comes

In the spring when the flowers bloom

I will remember

The goodness in your heart

In the fall when the leaves change

And the colors pop

I will remember your sence of humor

And how you use to make me laugh i

In winter when the snow falls

I will remember the beauty

Of your soul

And one day my dear sweet cousin

We will meet again

When it is my time

And

Death comes

E.A. Fussell

O8.08.2013

It is better to live your own destiny

Imperfectly

Than to live an imitation of

Somebody else’s life perfectly

Said a different way

I am not what I think I am

And

I am not what you think I am

I am what I think you think I am

How much of your person is created

By the description of others

Your family

Your friends

Your teachers

Your co-workers

Your lovers

All have given you a description

Of yourself

The person you conduct yourself as

But is it who you really are

Maybe

Maybe not

What sets your soul on fire

With passion

What makes your heart lift

With joy

What gives energy to your being

Just by looking at it

Listening to it

Tasting it

Smelling it

How much time each week

Are you involved

With those type things

If you answered

A lot

Then you are truly blessed

If you answered too little

Then change it

This life is very short

In the blink of an eye

You can choose the life

That expresses your true self

Don’t let time get away from you

Make a decision to let your ego rest

Grab hold of the things

That allow you to live your life’s best

Don’t wait

Do it now

Now is all you have

E.A. Fussell

11.05.2020

Do you ever get off track

I do

Then I have one of those

Conversations with myself

You know the kind

Where you beat yourself up a little

Until you re-commit and

Double down the effort

To stay on track

Health is my focus and

Releasing body fat is part of that

Overall target

I chug along on track

Releasing a few pounds

That eventually total twenty

Then

Nothing

I’m stuck on a plateau platform

It’s more difficult to stay

On a strict plan when

You aren’t experiencing results

So

Off track I go

Walking less

Eating more

Then

A pound gained here another there

HOLD-UP

I tell myself

We are NOT going backwards again

Followed by

A harsh verbal beating of myself

Then a calm remembering

Of progress made this year

And an enthusiastic setting

Of a new goal

Doubling down on my commitment

To stay focused

To stay on track

So

Here I go

I’m on my way

To another minus twenty

Destination depot

E.A. Fussell

11.04.2020

Is something

Good or bad

No one knows until

Thinking makes it so

Where do thoughts come from

Perception influences our thinking

Removing perception

Is no easy thing to do

Sit in silent awareness

Let the thought clouds

Come and go

Attach to nothing

Get to your true self

The you who knows

That everything is an illusion

Playing itself out across the mind

Making us think a thing is

Good or bad

But in our heart we can find

That thoughts

Are nothing but passers by

Unless we attach ourselves to them

Giving them life

Otherwise they just float off and die

Choose to live in peace

Let thoughts pass on by

E.A. Fussell

11.03.2020

Sit still

Breathe

In

Breathe

Out

Let awareness be

Don’t imagine

Don’t attach

To any thought

Quietly observe

As thoughts pass

Through your mind

Like clouds

Passing in the sky

No need to reason with them

No need to react to them

Detach

Observe

Breathe

Out

Breathe

In

Sit still

E.A. Fussell

11.03.2020

It’s a disturbing feeling

When your mouth speaks words

That do not match the words

Your mind is thinking

When it first started

I didn’t think much of it

Now it has become worrisome

I would like to say

It is a mind too full of thoughts

Combined with lack of focus

But that is not the case

Awareness of what I am saying

Has never been more heightened

Thus the greater alarm

When the words come out all wrong

No symptoms of an underlying issue

No evidence of stroke

Only jumbled sentences

Of words mis-spoke

Treatment protocol has started

To improve cognition and memory

It seems to be helping

At least it’s easing the misery

Of worrying

I’m too young to lose my mind

I wish that I had invested my time

Less in doing and accomplishing

More in seeing and just being

E.A. Fussell

11.02.2020